That 7th day in July, when you yanked me out of the shower, dragged me upstairs and did all those horrible things that I don't even want to remember? In that moment, whatever feelings I thought I had for you, whatever love, hatred, longing, and hope, I had for you, they all disappeared the moment you bashed my head with the shower handle. Whatever beautiful memories I had of you for over a decade that I have known you, they all disappeared that moment you pried my fingers from the railing and dragged me by my hair all the way to your bed. That moment that you made me bleed, that you hurt me in more horrific ways that I could ever imagine possible, you and I ended.
I will never fully understand why I had to meet you, why you did what you did despite knowing fully that I was in love with you, that I would have given you what you so cruelly took.
I have never believed in the concept of heaven and hell. But if there is indeed hell, you are every bit the epitome of it.
That 7th day in July, in my heart, I knew that your sick hold in my life ended. I feel nothing for you. I have nothing for you. This is where you end, asshole.
Ticket For One, Please...
Just moving one foot in front of the other...
Monday, September 12, 2016
Thursday, January 7, 2016
Saturday, January 2, 2016
Thursday, December 31, 2015
I'm unusually tired today. It hurts so much just to be out in the sun for a few minutes. They want me to come out, and just be the Kat that they used to know. Things like these make me sad. It reminds me that I can no longer do stuffs as easily as before. It reminds me that there is something wrong with me.
It hurts when they don't bother to understand. It hurts when they expect me to look after them, because sometimes I am not even sure if I can take care of myself.
It hurts to realize that no matter how much you care, you can't expect people to do the same for you.
Happy New year, Kat.
Friday, April 10, 2015
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Quando!?
Ahh, when will it end?
When will I stop allowing you to stomp all over me?
When will I realize that in truth, you hurt me more than anyone I ever knew... That you will only cause me recurring pain... That you do not know how to value the people around you...
When will I wake up?
Saturday, January 31, 2015
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